My lovely Dear

Hei... dont missunderstand by my title ok? hahaha here my love 1... she give my parents "kena lottery" !! hahaha aiyoo my dear ah, you dont tell me your number will open 1... lucky dad still give me bunch of money hahaha :) Remember tell me when your number will open yea... after I kena, I help you "pang leng leng" ok?

Dear ha, will give you some nice skirt soon (rear and back body kits) ... and I will buy you new shoe also de (sport rims) hehehe I love you dear :)

Valentine Day

Valentine's day just passed...

My valentine neh? havent find yet de? hahaha. When I can have it?

This years, I am not alone hahaha but not in couple too hehe, With 3 of my friend, young and senior. We having a nice, dont know what western food. It cheap and nice ! hahaha I just get bloated with those chicken, lamb and fish (including a tin of soya bean).

Althought no love one, I am still enjoying the day with my friend as I mention. I hope next year can be a better valentine day for me.

Wish you will be my valentine soon...

Something about Her

Ermmm let me describe something about her...

1. Intelligent - I mean, she is not stupid :p
2. Cute - Ke Ai I mean sometime she act cute :) hahaha
3. Happy go lucky - Especially on vacation and got nice pressie :p
4. Very "Teh" - This is her secret weapon, hehehe
5. Tolerance - 100% + 1% tolerance when she really love you
6. Kwai - Very listening sometime :p when her mood is good
7. Big bully - Especially on me :(
8. Very "SOK" (very Cun) - force to write, hahaha
9. What else ah? Oh yeah, Nauti... - All the time :)

In summary, she is a very funny and cute person that I never meet in my life before. Nice to meet you and you make my life cheer up and brighter :)

Gong Xi Fat Chai

Hi All,

I wish you all Gong Xi Fa Chai and Always Healthy, Pretty and Handsome. Important is get more angpau.



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Something for you

A girl asked a guy! if he thought she was pretty , he said... no . She asked him if he would want to be with her forever ....and he said no . She then asked him if she were to leave would he cry ? and once again he replied with a no . She had heard enough .

As she walked away, tears streaming down her face the boy grabbed her arm and said....You're not pretty you're b e a u t i f u l . I don't want to be with you forever . I NEED to be with you forever , and i wouldn't cry if you walked away...I'd die ...

New Job

1 word... Boring, I think because of new and now I have no job been assign and just reading DOC... OMG read document is a dam boring thing... I going mad if keep me doing this thing. Now I understand last time someone told me...

Sien (boring), Hungry and Sleepy...

Wah this 3 things also got wor, beh tahan la... Help... I still got 2 days briefing and I think I am gonna fishing whole session...

What should I do... I miss someone already...

But i still can using my company email for chatting hahaha :p "chui ah" hahaha no Internet also can chat de :)

4 Open Guys

Yesterday listen to Mix Fm and found out Phuah Chu Kang said this 4 Open Guys. I think it is quite true. I real guys should have this 4 criteria.


1) Open Door for her

• I think is gentlement right? A guys should know how to open door for a girl. I do :p

2) Open Arm for her

• This is most of the guys will do, when she need your arm for cry give her... and let her feel that she is protected by your big arm :p

3) Open Wallet for her

• Aha... This is most women need right? A sense of security and a good for her hahaha. Which girl dont like her man spend on her?

4) Open Leg for her

• This 1 ah? You know what I mean? hahaha a Guys should able to satisfied a women in term of... *ahem *ahem

So girls, do you want your love 1 have those criteria? Think about it. Please make sure ur love 1 have those criteria hahaha :)

Non-Working Day

Yesterday is holiday, Today is also holiday... why har? Hehehe because hor I resign liao and I waiting my new job coming, 1st Febuary will new job start. huh so scare la... how ah? aiksss I hope I can handle it well. This few days quite tight with my schedule. alot thing need to be settle down and alot thing need to be completed before new job is start.

I hear my supervisor said that I will base on oversea 80% of all my time. OMG that is quite long neh... how I going to find my GF har? Hahaha, I think if go Sri Lanka then find a Sri Lanka GF then if go Vietnam the go find Vietnam GF hahaha just kidding la... I prefer Malaysian... Are you Malaysian? Oh yes? then please send resume to me.. I will review you hahaha, joking joking, dont think I so desprate ok? I still got someone hehehe who? dont want tell you la.. guess yourself.

I think it will hard time for me because I am home sicko... My friend all here... haizzz I think I need time to make myself comfortable with oversea lifestyle. Fly Fly Fly...

For those who will missing me... dont worry, I will missing you all 2... take care.

Sekinchan

Sekinchan was a great place for vacation. Not believe? visit Prince Sekinchan blog. There have a great paddy field and also a beach. A nice place for relax but please dont stay too long because there are nothing here except this 2 places hehehe. If you are seafood lover please come and I bring you to eat :) I having my sunset session alone yesterday. Really nice but it nicer that you are with me.

A place with no entertainment but I still able to tap (curi) people line and use internet. Even tho the line was not stable but I still can blogging ma... hahaha. Very sien if I going back alone. I wish next time you can accompany me back home hahaha. Early morning 6am++ me and my dad was having a great morning walk. My mum is playing tai chi hahaha after the session of walk, I going to have breakfast with my dad and eat dry mihun... ermmm yummy...

I going back PJ soon (at 9am), bring my dad for doing check up at Pantai Hospital (1230pm appointment). He is ok just to make sure his health in the top performance. By the way, he is 61 years old. He still energitic. I wish he always will. Lets hope he will ok and healthy.

This Love Is Strong

Looking into love song and found the song quite nice and the lyrics was meaningful. My friend told me, when you in love, all the love song is special write for you but when you broken up, all the sad song is also for you. I believe it is quite true. Lets download/buy the song and listen. Enjoy your weekend.

Sometimes the questions
Seem so hard
Are we growing together
Or falling apart

The ghosts of the past
Have infected our dreams
What's the damage, what's the cost
Are we destined to repeat

I remember at the start of it
Our hopes were still new
Our eyes were wide with innocence
Our hearts were strong and true

We trembled as we fought to keep our
First love alive
When did things get out of hand
How do we survive

[Chorus]
This love is strong, it will last
It will hold you up when you need it
It will not break, I won't give up
It costs too much and I need you

We circle like opponents
Sparring with the blame
You hold your heart so tightly
To shield you from more pain

But even now sometimes I see
Unguarded in your eyes
That fragile hope that love can win
The willingness to try

It's such a complicated thing, it's not easy
I'm here for you, when you need me
We'll fight to hold the ground we've won,

please don't surrender

We're not in this alone
No no

I know we can make it

Keep holding on to our love

Last Day

Last day jor, feeling sad (of courses)! I am human ok? I got feeling de. For me this is not a 1st time farewell but it still having same feeling like 1st time farewell. Why ah? Maybe I am too emo hor? My friend always told me that I dam emo and dam girlish. I was so sad, really de… I very Man 1 ok?

I want to give my appreciation for all my colleagues and some that I treat it not just only colleagues but my friend. I really appreciate the time we been together and the time we solve problem together. Happiness and sadness just around us, I really “dam” appreciate it. When the time I am not around, I hope my friend can:-

1) Take care of your health (attitude, diet and rest)
2) If u got good health u can perform your job well
3) If u got good health u can take your parent well
4) do more exercise it produce good hormone and make u happier
5) Think about your future plan (about us? Haha)

Remember of me, remember of everything we go though… memorize it and keep it as souvenir.

The Most Respect Sa Jie !
Suki Suki My Mui Mui
Jack and H K Lau
Siu Keong, Haur and Rain
Ah Lian ohhhhh


No Need to comment... haha you know is who right?
Keat and Siok
Daniel, See Peng and Wendy
They call him Rain... Lengcai ma?
Lay Teng Jie jie

Aaron Pentagon and Melinda
Ida or Ila... dont know :p
Low, Afsin, Yow and Randa
Alex Tai Ko Tai

Hee Ling Jie

Pei Si the leaver too :p

Actually hor... I still miss taken photo with alot people, some of them leave and some of them meeting :( so sad. Ah Yang neh? why you dont want take photo with me de? so MEAN la.. you... Then Li Hsia, Swee Yeun, Sin Sin, Chris, Janice, Eddie Chua, Get Ting, Simpson, Yoke Yeng and etc (which I was missing and forget sorry ah). I wish we can meet sometime.

New Year, New Move

I mean Chinese New Year Ok? A New Year should have new move, this is today speaker told me. Today going to supporting my nutrition Sifu (Vincent Ho) who have nutrition talk about 30 min. He just giving us lot information about nutrition and he really great speaker. At the end of the session, there is 1 person we call him Ah Wee Sifu, he giving us some motivation talk about life and New Year move.

He giving us an example which I think I should write it down. He is illustration Happiness. The stories begin with a dog talk to God.

Dog: Why human much happier than us?
God: Actually you can happier as them.
Dog: How?
God: The happiness is just at your tails.
Dog: Really?
*The dog keep chasing the tails (as you all know, it hardly get it).

After sometime, the dog is tired and lying down to the floor. In the same time the tail just automatically fall above the head and the dog got it.

The stories inspire that Happiness is just with us. It match what I mention before, Happiness is the choice we make. Sometime we keep chasing for happiness but at the end what we have is the word "pain and tired". But actually the happiness just in front of us and just in our hand. Do you agree? I am agreeing with this story. It really wakes me up.

I wish you can understand the moral of the stories. Lets design your happiness today… and I will design mine too

Thaipusam

Thaipusam (Tamil: தைப்பூசம்) (or Thai Poosam Kavady) is a Hindu festival celebrated mostly by the Tamil community on the full moon in the Tamil month of Thai (Jan/Feb). Pusam refers to a star that is at its highest point during the festival. The festival commemorates both the birthday of Lord Murugan (also Subramaniam), the youngest son of Shiva and Parvati, and the occasion when Parvati gave Murugan a vel (lance) so he could vanquish the evil demon Soorapadman.

source from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Thaipusam

A holiday for me, but I am very busy whole day. Sorry that cant join my doggie pals to JT because I have karaoke session in The Curve :p A 3 hours session I sing most of the song (pai seh hehe). Suki Suki, Ah Lian, Me, Jack Jack the over-loved and Heng Chai. 5 of us dam siok (I dont know they siok or not but I dam siok :p). Thank Ah Lian and Suki Suki duet song with me. I love to sing duet song eaither girls or with guys. The feeling is more comfortable and not so sien.

Which the Lengcai -est ?

OMG, They are single !!

I am very very siok !

Eh, Jay Chow is with cap not with helmet ok?

Very hard shot for this... only 5 of us know...

Dam Gay... why I not in? I am gayest ! :p

After the session of karaoke, we all leave. I going back home clean up my room and printing my 2008 calender. It take me more than 3 hours to complete fromSeptember - December. I hope you like it. After that, take a nap and at night I have class. Not forget that I am dinner alone... :p I think a short holiday can let me gain back my energy/power. Tommorrow will have a great mood to do work. But sad thing is 2 more working days, I will leave you all. Dont cry for me ok? but I sure I will lor :(

Left 2 Working Days :(

I Love You

You know how powerful is this word? The word itself is not meaningful, but when it come to the person you really love, then the word is a magic or I should call it a spells. A spell than can paralyse or melting your heart. The word can be represented in different way, either by speak or in written form.

For me, this word is very important and you cant speak it or write it if you dont mean it. I very serious about this word and I think same to you right? I really cant control my emotion when I receive the word from an unknown person (didnt write any name). I dont know who wrote it but I wish is you. But when I see it, my heart just beating so fast. A word that can touch my heart and my soul.

I dont know how to describe that, no one done this to me before. I wish the person is you. But for now, we still stick to our plan that I mention ok? I hope you will understand what I done and I hope you trust me too. Lets time tell. I wish you always Happy and Cheer up. Thanks you for your everything.

I feel the pain

A silent and peaceful night. I was on the street with Prince, quite and clear, No body know what am I am thinking and no body know what I am doing. I just do what I think is correct. Only 3 days more I will leave the company. I wish I can enjoy this days with all my colleagues there. I wish they don’t do farewell with me, I don’t like the feeling. I wish they smile to me more in this few days. I really wish...

Do we still keep in touch my dear friends? Do we still will like last time we enjoy our meal? Or we will become stranger? Our status changed, become X- colleagues no more colleagues. Last time we always have same topic like hating a same person, bonuses issue, do a same task and etc. We have same topic but after I leave, do we still can communicate? I don’t know. I really wish I can stay in the company and enjoy the time with you all but not now.

Sometime we just cant, I know I like the environment but what to do? Some of the criteria cant been met. I choose to leave, temporary leaving not mean forever, a simple leaving maybe can change something, something that I not wish to happen again, and something that won’t repeat again. Just like my broken heart, I don’t want the same thing happen again. I can’t promise I will return but at least now, I know I will more comfortable. Let time tells and tell what will happen.

I hope all of you put me into your heart and always remember - "Johntim the Talkactive" I will miss you all.

Left 3 Working Days :(

K9 Day

Sunday, K9 day. Me and Prince enjoy a whole morning session until 1pm but all my friend FFK me haha dont want to mention is who. But the event is dam nice... I will update Prince's Blog soon, so just catch up with the blog you will see more about K9 Day. I got new look at K9 day today, show u at below later. Amanda ask me "You sponsor by Adidas ah?" hahaha. Dam tired and very sleep whole afternoon but dont want sleep scare later night cannot sleep.

Decide to call up coll and having a lunch. 3 Guys, Me, Jacky and Heng... dam Gay... hahaha eating McDonald at Seksyen 14... 3 of us eating Prosperity Burger... Emmmm yummy, heng and jacky said very spicy wor... hahaha after finishing the lunch I going back with jacky and we having a session of learning (dont ask me learn what hehehe) Finish the session about 6pm and preparing bath prince and going walk with prince. After finishing, going to dinner (ermmm alone lor :p) then and after that I go to Klang to find my bro. Not forget a session of learning piano :p

Talking to my bro about 2 hours+ and watch Everton vs what what team... 2 - 1... Everton win. Then after back home lor... and now writing blog... A busy Sunday har? No la... no choice no girls date, what to do? eh friend got girls to recommend or not hahaha (same topic)

Adidas Sponsor :p

Forget

I have found a very interesting articles that I wish to share very long time ago... Now let me share it out. It Help me alot last time. I hope it will also help you if you having a same problem with me. I hope it also help me this time. Why does it so hard to love you? why?

Every person knows a feeling to brake up with your love partner. Moreover, if a relationship was long and you were in love, after brake up of course you will feel bad and upset. Now everything will be different, no one will wait you at home; no one will tell you sweet words. Sometimes it doesn’t even matter who decided to brake up – you or your partner – you suffer the same.

However, that is not the end of the world. There are many different ways to survive this part of life, and some different methods work for different people.Some friends might tell you to find someone else for short time dating, or just one night affair with first person you met in a pub. But usually that doesn’t help. You will not feel better if you sleep with the first met. Or if you feel that might help you – it will be just for one night. After everything, all feelings and memories will come back.

First of all what you need to do is to understand that your relationship is over now. When you sincerely realize that, you will feel relief. Then try to share your feelings with your close friends –saying what’s on your heart to someone always helps. Though some people do not think so, usually those who are very reserved, and don’t like to share personal feelings with others. If you keep everything inside it might be just worse. You will think about the past all the time, about things you’ve done wrong – but you need to understand one thing - you can’t change the past – you can change just your future, and it’s up to you how it will look like.

Brake up is not the end of your life. People say that very good thing to do is to go and do some activities you always wanted to do – if you ever dreamed to learn to dance – go and do it. Now is the best time for changes and new experiences. Moreover, you have a chance to meet someone else, but better not to search purposely. New love will always come when you will be unprepared and when you won’t expect that happening.

For women after brake up a good therapy is big shopping! You will not only be tired after it, but also happy and fresh – ready for new life. Thoughts about the past will not bother you, because you will have plenty of new things to think about. Go to party with friends, enjoy your time, chat with people, and meet old friends whom you haven’t seen for a long time. Just spend a lot of time with people you like and try not to think about your ex love.

Moreover you can start go to gym or do some sport. You will get double effect – have a good activity and after all will look better and healthier. Besides you also have a good chance to meet new people in sport club or gym, maybe even new love. The main thing is try to stay at home as less as it is possible.

New experiences, new activities always help not only to women, but men as well. People say that after brake up it is very good to take some vacation and go to travel somewhere you always wanted to go. Visit any exotic country where is hot weather, sun and beach. Make your dreams come true. Maybe you were not able to travel because of your partner’s job; you didn’t like the idea of traveling alone, so now it’s the best time for that. You don’t need to ask permeation from no one.

It might be hard, but if you want to forget – you will do everything and that will happen, if you don’t want to forget – you will suffer much longer. Choose the way that is the best to you.

By : Ms. R.

Em Seh Tak

Eh really a bit of that feeling, although there are not much I learn in my current company but I know a bunch of guys/gals with is dam friendly and funny. I love to play together with them. But there are also some which I not so close la. Maybe it is because of my attitude? Which is dam talkative and always make noise in company? In work experience, I don’t think there is any good memory for me, but in term of relationship then yes... I not mean love thing ok? I mean friendship, which I really appreciate it.

It is very funny, like me and you... actually we don’t know each others, but why now we are so good and closed? Maybe it is just a month of a week? Did you realise this before? I feel like knowing you so much and feeling like want to care you all so much. I wish I not leave and I wish I won’t apart with you all but ... but I need face reality which SALARY problem :p ... It totally underpaid and there no room for me to improve. I hope my move and bring a mature Johntim in future.

I want to thanks again for the farewell that you all organize for me. Especially the organizer... Come let me give u a kiss (muackkks :p). "I Like it a lot" (sa jie quote :p) Although I need to paid for RM50 !! Alamak... Farewell I also need to paid ah? But never mind la... RM50, "drop also drops lor" (jajaja my quote). I really appreciate the relationship that we all go thru... I hope it is forever... Maybe leaving is just a start for us to have a stronger relationship. For all my friend, Lets we make it! Ok? Keep in touch.

Left 4 Working Days :(

Sleepless Night

Don’t misunderstand, I sleep dam early yesterday… cant believable that I sleep at 10pm wor hahaha. I having a sleepless night before that, I know it feel. When you having a problem and have a lot of thing to think then you mind will busy thinking about that thing. At the end, your mind cant rest, which mean you can’t sleep. I was having this about 2 weeks after I have broken with my Ex. I think if you read my previous post you will know.

I don’t know what can be helpful for this matter, but I know time will do. Some people take few days, and some people take few months. I hope you won’t take so long time. Try to solve your problem 1 by 1. Focus and prioritize the problem that you want to solve. When your problems are solved 1 by 1, your feeling will getting better and better.

All this while at home, I am training Prince for K9 days. I hope he can enjoy in the day. He is very obedient dog and very intelligent, just sometime very lazy to move. Maybe like owner like dog. I am also a lazy person. Ok, as a topic of Sleepless Night, I wish everyone can have a good rest tonight… Hei tonight is Friday night!! Cannot rest… need to go “WET” hahaha

Dont Say It Again

Yesterday, we make 1 of my friend very T*L*N. Sometime some word is very sensitive to someone. A word that shouldnt speak infront of them. Let say for me... IF you call me to died, I will very angry... same to others... I shouldnt speak that word out... I am sorry. I hope the person wont angry me. Will not said the word again. Sorry my friend. I want to tell that I not mean that word. I not mean anything to hurt you. I believe u also know right? Hope you will forgive me, my friend? I know you are very 'big heart' 1, sure you will... Thanks 1st...

Just Finishing my GOV Technical Spec... So happy... Now going to do PRI Technical Spec liao. I am leaving soon, need to adapt to new environment, need to learn new thing... but what to do... as human we need changes... change make us grow ! Ok la.. I wish I can handle it well soon. I will miss you all de.

What a Day

Eh ... So "Mushroom"(mou ku-innocient) la Today. I got langgar sign board and screw by a cleaner -_-'' What a day. Why? Why me hahaha

Today going to warehouse to pickup, when go out... my stupid company put a sign board "No Parking" at turning point. I pun like biasa left turn.... Pusing Kiri (Pu Ki - short form hehehe) Mana dau cannot pass wor... creeeeeekkkk sound... awwww heart pain... the car got few stracth... oh my beloved Honda Civic -_-'' pity her, I go back later will sayang you with polish and wax.

Then second case lagi teruk... Mau pangsai ni... go to toilet... mana dau got 1 auntie?? dont know auntie or jie jie, a cleaner which already terkenal fierce 1 stand infront of the toilet. I ma very politely ask, can I go in? Mana dau this Sei Cleaner shout at me... "BELUM KERING LAAAAAA" Ma de dia shout at me... This clearner memang "Mou Dai Mou Sai" nevermind "Ngor Yan" ! Grrrrr Kek Sei Ngorrr La...

Lucky I still can tahan... If not I think need go back change pants liao... haha "you know what I mean" (Sa jie pronouce copyright). Nevermind de... I "Yan...." I "Yan...." not "Yan" that 1... I mean more patient... But I really dam Mushroom la... buta buta kena 1...

But there are also a happy thing today, My Technical Spec going to finish soon. Wish I can finish it fast and can snake more :)

~ n ss!w ~

Hei Ho

Hei Ho again, Come on Johntim, wake up ! wake up ! what you are doing ! wake up... hehehe Now is 1200am+ liao... 15th yeah ! got Money liao What to do? buy shirts lor, buy pants/jeans lor and alot more... I dam 'fan' la... so many thing to buy... and somemore it new years already. Must think of way to buy my CNY thing.

Just now have dinner with friend, few good friend. After dinner go back home and have a rest with read some Nutrition book. Today topic I read about Hair Loss... hehehe maybe I got this problem, I finish read jor... if you wanna know... let me know.

Rat years coming... hearing this years is not good for Monkey neh... nevermind la... just as reference and more careful abit lor. This CNY years year got 3 wishes as same as last years.

1) Find a girl friend (hei, I not desprate ok? just want find someone who I Love and Love her)

2) Earn 100k +- this year (including EPF and everything la...)

3) - Reserve -

When it come to wishes hor... I always very serious about it... so if you see me take action, dont scare hor... hahaha I chase kao kao this time... dont kasi lari.

I like to write blog, really de ! Somewhere to express my feeling. My good friend Tang said that, writing blog just express our feeling out because if we talk to people pun, they also cannot help us 1 de, somemore some people will laugh us. Only ourself can help, that why we write it out and it feel very siok already... I quite agreed with that sentences. Sometime I just feel, talk pun lazy... just write out... I feel very funny after I read it back next time. Just like post 2004... I read and I laugh myself... Just express what you want to express...

For my blog readers.... thank for the support all the while and I wish I can improve more on my english... I just write out ma... dont like tat la... hahaha give face ok? i got receive alot comment that dont write about sad thing la... write abit more happy 1... Ok all my friends... From now... I try... Try ok? to write more about my happiness... Ok la I need to sleep jor... Tomolo I still need to work and hand over alot alot thing.

"My friends keep telling me

That if you really love her

You've gotta set her free

And if she returns in time

I'll know she's mine"

Careless again

Yesterday Sunday, was planning to go buy some fruit but end up with a small tiny accident. So careless just hit the divider and the tayar burst jor... The tayar hancur habis... need go change. Cilaka Jaya no fruit somemore need me paid RM3 for the parking hehehe... Next time dont go jaya buy fruit jor.

I tot I can go thru the corner but mana tau... mana tau tak boleh de !! My accuracy drop liao, old jor... so little tiny corner I also langgar... aiksss apa la... Aku memang careless... Somemore I need change tayar (spare tayar, not my fat ok?) and waste my 30min. Aiksss

Moral of the story:-

1) Rushing cant help u solve your problem, it make you slower.

2) Dont think of someone when driving ok? hehehe

3) No SMS and No Calls :) (I didnt, I just advise :p)

"Love takes time, To heal when you’re hurting so much"

Jan 14

Remember this day, I have decided something. Something very important between me and her. I think this might be a last blog for her. I will stop writing about her. A alot thing happen just in very short time. Just month time but dam alot thing happening around, I would said everyday will have new thing happening. But I really never regret and I am very happy she bring me back my LOVE who lost so long ago. It just a month but why we like knowing each other for so long time? She told me, I know you just so short but why I told u so many thing and I feel I knowing you for so long... frankly I did feel that... Thanks for the good feeling that you give me. I appriciate it.

I dont know what will happen, but at least trust yourself that you can wake up and become yourself again. Never trust anyone but at least you must trust yourself. No one can help but you, youself is the one who can help you... Time also play important part... Base on priority and go for it. I always believe on you that you can do it.

Just review back pass few months. From friend till we love each others, alot sweet thing just happen, remember our 1st dinner? remember our 1st holding hand? It just sweet right? Remember our Anni? I believe those is enough for us memorize it forever. I treasure you and I hope you will also same will treasure me. January 14 and December 09 really make me unforgettable. I wish we can know earlier but I know everything is fate.

Fate make people together and fate make people dont. Dont blame it, it just a process that we need to go thru and we need to face it. Every process that we go thru we learn from it. We learn not to fall down again we become stronger and stronger. A successful person always have their story, only a story person will success, not believe? If I wake up and I got 1Billion at my account, do you think I got story to share? I wake up and I go 1 Billion in my account... That will not inspire people.

A curious that I have now is, do you will forget me later on? do you will erase what we experience before? I really hope she will remember me, no 1 know what will happen next. will we be together? I dont know.

Let me the one who speak out. Let me the one who decide. Let me the one who take the pain 1st. I wish you can treat me as your good friend. I wish you really take care your health. I know you still have family & alot friend that will take care of you. I pray for you and myself.

Let time tell what will happening next... "If god want us together, we will. If dont, we will not". If you really cherish about our relationship, you know what to do. Let time do the NEXT thing.

You might say that it's over

You might say that you don't care

You might say you don't miss me

You don't need me

But I know that you do and I feel that you do

Inside

Just Here With You

Sometime, lovers seldom talk but there feel very comfortable. Do you agree on this? I totally agreed, when she is around I feel very comfortable even we not talking. That we call power of love or just a nonsense? hahaha I just hope I can wish her always have clear of mind and cheer up like what she do always.

I wish my tomorrow can be more brighter and what I already dream can be achieve.

"Let me find the key to your heart so I can unlock your secret chambers of love; when I do find that key, I will lock myself in your heart forever."

Another Sunday Without Her

How is the day that you not seeing me? Since we have no calls and SMS, do you really miss me there? Or you just busying with you stuff? I really dont know what is your situation there, what are you thinking now?

I just want to know:-

Do you feel how important I am in your daily life? Or you just can enjoy your life as usual without me? I really want to know... I really want to hear from you what is your answer.

In positive way, this might be good for us since I going to go oversea in next month. Oversea is not a few day, it maybe a few months... alot thing will happen in few months time. She told me she have no confident with long distance, but I could tell you all, if you really love someone, you should trust him/her and confident with ourself.

Dont know I why cant sleep, dont know why cant think of others thing... Just feel something in my head now, something like...

Can enjoy Sunday with her sooner or later...

Can have nice dinner with her...

Wish she is OK...

Ms Insomnia please dont disturb me anymore I need to sleep... now is 230am. Even tho can see her, but I reall hope I can see her in the dream later...

quote of the day:-

"If dreaming is the only way to be with you, then I'll never open my eyes."

I wonder how we can survive

This romance

But in the end if Im with you

Ill take the chance

Saturday

Hei ya... I am back again... are you waiting my new post? hahaha... yea here I am. Guess what, I at office hehehe not believe? (need to do some handover thingy) you need to believe this... Come my kompakar log book and check. I just finish washing my car (ahem* I mean sent to wash la...) Quite fast and efficient, my lovely car Civic 7th Generation was bath until "sui sui" liao.

Why need to wash car? haiya as you know, Saturday is a day with my son (Prince). We go to jungle tracking (JT) and after the session of JT we going to breakfast. As usual, a Roti Telur for him. Tiring and go back bathing and take a nap (2 hours). Very refreshing now.

Later hor, I need send my friend to Sri Kembangan after that I might plan to go somewhere. Somewhere? where wor? ermmm let me think think 1st ah... I think might go shopping because CNY is near liao, need buy some shirts and pants, especially red color (my father like red at CNY, so no choice). But I will buy some nice gray, white, black color shirt because she told me those color shirt is nice for me. She told me dont buy shirt that too light because it is not suitable for me... hahaha Ok la ... give face abit ... I wil buy those u mention. I more thing I need mention here is I can wear 'M' and 'S' size shirt :p

Ok la... I going to start my work jor... will update you all sooner or at night about post for her (SHE).

She is OK

Finally have receive a word from her. She is ok and fine. It is very happy that know she is eating, enjoying her life there. I wish she can always so happy. But I just reply her "It is great that you are alright there. I wish you enjoy ur life there". It is sound sarcastic? I dont know... Actually I want to tell her "I miss u dam much" but I dont want to distract her attention and mind now. I want she really can decide base on what she want.

In this few days does my imagine in youur mind? When you taking your dinner do you thinking of me? When u eating fish do you will thinking of me?

Not Under My Control

If you ask me, do I sad now? do I unhappy now? I would said ermmm yes sure will sad la because human is emotional ma... I very much respect her, but the relation just getting up and down. Two of us getting very frus I believe, right? We want to be together but there are alot thing just happening around us and make us cant be together. Everytime she start to loving me, sure there are something around is happening. Something that make use apart. I didnt angry and we didnt hate each others because of this. Maybe we call it as challenge. God is testing on us, test on our patient, test on our love and how strong are we. I hope she also feel the same thing.

I think this time I should take it more serious about this matter, I really hope she can settle all her thing and come back to me. I really hope the time that we enjoy is 101% and not 99%. How long time that I need to wait is doesnt matter, the problem is, does she can really make the right decision? This is the time that can let her think, how important I am in her life. If she really think that I can give her future and happiness, I willing with her goes thru the entire process.

Everthing just happen not under my control, I worried also not use, I cry also not use, the decision is not on me. I wish she can be happy (true happiness) no matter what she decide to be.

The feeling of missing her is very much... I cant see her, I cant hear her voice... Frankly find her is not a difficult problem for me, but just I dont want to disturb her and I wont find her now. I hope she understand that why I dont want to find her. I just want she think deeply this time about our relationship. I wish I am the one that can give her back all her confident that lose for so long time ago.

I just want to ask her, "how are you there? and are you ok?"

quote for you :-

"I gave you a piece of paper with 'n ss!w !' written on it. It didn't meant anything to you, until you turned it upside-down."

HOW

I dont know when she will come back (if you know what I mean it), I have no contact with her, No calls, No SMS...

How do I know her situation?

How do I know what she will decide?

How do I know her health condition?

How do I make her love me more?

How ... and how ...

Alot question actually I wanna ask her? Why decided to be alone? Why? But I think alone might be good for her to think what she should to do next. I hope she can make a rational decision as she know who can give her good future. Alot thing I already told her before, it isnt a promise but I want to tell her, It is a chance.

Do you read my blog? A way to contact with you is thru this blog. If you read... I wish you understand that the feeling I facing now. I wish you know what I am doing now and how much I missing you. You might not seeing this... but I believe you can feel it.

I think nobody will know what I am writing now except you. Because you know this is special for you and it only you will understand what is my feeling now. I wish you can back come soon, very soon and very very soon. I always wish and pray for it.

Awal Muharram

Celebrated by Muslims as the day symbolises two happy event in a Muslim's life. The start of Muslim year or calendar, Muharram, coincides with Prophet Muhammad's journey from Mecca to Medina on the first of Muharram in 622AD. To signify this occasion, Muslims attend to various religious activities, spiritual singing, religious meeting throughout the country.

quoted : http://www.regit.com/malaysia/festival/muharam.htm

I just stupidly staying at home. I dont know what she will doing today. Going out? or with friend... I wish she is happy. I wanna ask her, how are you there? do you missing me? I wanna tell you that I miss you so much. If I have holiday now, I will join you. I hope you will come back soon. (You understand what I want and what I mean)

Today evening have planned to go dinner with my family. My mum especially, She come here for so long and I just detoxing hahaha no chance to bring her go makan2. I think today is the best day to bring her go eat. What to eat? any suggestion? I think I wanna bring her to Klang to eat sifu, what do you think? Good right? hehehe

"Every minute without you is a minute of wasted time"

"It is said that, you cant change the world but you can always change yourself. So, if you and I start to change, then we have already begun changin the world"

"Sometimes we must get hurt in order to grow, we must fall in order to know. Sometimes our vision clears only after our eyes are washed away with tears"

Detox 1st day

A great day... just finishing tomorrow detox juices... very tired and going to fall sleep soon. I am going out with friend and dinner but I just can drink mineral water. How suffer izzit? They are eating nasi lemak,cantonese fried, nasi goreng kampung and kuih muih... OMG

Nevermind ... patient is very important. I already get used to it. This is my 8th time detox. I should able to do it better. 65KG... I hope tomolo it will become 64KG...

For her,

I wish she can able to get well soon from the broken heart. May us going thru the process together. I always wish and you know I really do... Let time taking part in this journey... we will see something very soon. Always wish for you.

"Some people think that it's holding on that makes one strong; sometimes it's letting go"

Sunday Feeling

Sunday should feeling good... I wish she can have a good Sunday with her family because Sunday is family day ma... I wish I can also accompany my parent also but they at hometown now. I wish I have more time and can accompany them. That why I am working hard for my future. They are getting old and they cant wait anymore... I need to move fast enough.

Today I also want to wish my Sister 11th years Anniversary with her Husband. Cool right? 11 years is not short... they have really going thru alot thing and experience alot. This what we call true love. I wish I also can like this with my love one... but I not sure she will also think like tat. For me if you someone, should love them forever... dont you think so?

I always want to wish all couple and lover will always stay happily. This is what everyone wish too. Am I right? If really cant, then just accept it. I always believe, if the thing is yours... it is yours... if the thing is not yours how hard you try to get at last you will lose it. This is my believe, how about you?

"Love eventually grows if you allow TIME to play it part"

Samantha Pub

I have great feeling with this pubs, which quite nice and not so noise. I have join Heng, Sarina, Sarina's BF (Cliff I suppose), Karen, Karen's Sis (Michelle), Chiok and Jess. We chat and drink some beer. This time I not drunks... just having 3 cup of beer. I suppose is Calberg. I dont like beer so much, I prefer Cocktails, taste sweet just like me :) I am abit sweet that most of them said I got a cute face? izzit innnocent face? hahaha I dont know.

After finish drink around 12 oclock midnight, we plan to go back. Heng going back Cheras, Sarina going back with her BF and I fetch Karen back. She just drunks. I believe she have alot problems that why she drunk. I wish her can solve her problem soon. She home !

After I settle and finish my task, I starting go back... I go and find her. As she agreed to go out. We have some nice talk and it was a great night. But something unhappy happening, I feel so weird, Am I a good person and so understandable people? I just trust her, I didnt ask her a word, I sent her back after that. I dont want to mention those unhappy moments but I believe she know how to handle it.

As time goes by, I know what is love about. Love is something unpredictable can make a person do something that they not wish 2. But I want to conclude something, Love is unpredictable but we can choose a Happy 1, when there is a choice, why we not choose a good 1?. I hope will do... I really hope. I hope she appriciate the time we together... because I know my new jobs going to fly very frequent.

Today Message:

1. A guys should responsible on what they are doing
2. A guys should respect what girl need
3. A guys should never bully a girl especially a weak 1.

I look down very much for this kind of guys that have above criteria. Just dont be a guys !

New Year New You

Today a quote for her :-

"New Year, New You" a sentence that I saw somewhere, It make me think alot of thing. A New Year wish her can also become new, new in thinking, new is making decision and new in everything she wanna do.

To make you new, changes is something that needed. But human scare changes, scare after changes sometime bad happen, after change alot thing is different. Changes need new start, changes need alot of effort. That why, this make people afraid and scared changes.

New year is here right now, Lets us change together to have a better tomorrow!

Trust me!

New Year 2008

Today is new year, A brand new 2008. A feeling should very exciting and happy to invite a new year right? But I am not. Yesterday I just told her that I wanna leave her in this momemts (I mean temporary, to let her solve her problem). Haizzz maybe you ask me why so sudden? I also dont know... It really drive me crazy.

To whom I love,

I wish you understand, I wish you trust me that I make this decision is a good start for you and for our future. You told me that all the man are the same, because they always broken their promise. I can tell you I am not. If I am such a guys, I wont go find you over the places, call you 100+ times (you not pickup) and sms you 20-30 and I wont drunk for you if I purposely to leave you, since I hate to be drunk. I cant drive, I but I still drive back home because you want me go home. I am happy you still call me dear. I really touch by the word.

You must trust me and believe that my decision is good for you and or future. This is only the way I can see our future. This is only the way, only the way your problem can be solve and not been drag. You need to trust me again, "Even our physical is not together, but our love always in my heart". You need to understand me, only you know how painful I am, only you know how suffer I am. I just want you know that I dont want to leave you.

Can you understand my feeling now?

Can you trust me one more time?

*Half drunk situation.

Time for Review

I hear that new year should review back what we have did this year. Let me analysis abit :p

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What I achieve in year 2007

1) I got my brand new car

2) I got my brand new house

3) I got a bunch of doggie pal

4) I got a healhty and nauti prince

5) I got alot of new friend and coll

6) I meet her (that what I wanna said right?)

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What I dissapointed in year 2007

1) I broken up(Which I think is sad thing for me)

2) I been backstab by friend that I trust

3) I been downgrade ? consider?

4) I need fixed alot bug ?? jajaja

5) I might lose her? but probably not this year hahaha :)

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Ermmm I think 2007 seem not a bad year hor ? jajaja Wish 2008 can achieve more and more thing ! I wish everyone who read my blog also can dream come true !

A quotes make her happy

"There is only one happiness in life,to love and be loved."

- George Sand -

A quotes that touch her heart. I really wish to love her and she is able be loved by me :) Let time proved what I do. Trust me.

I miss you just how you miss me.

Well...

Well... there is so much thing that is unexpected happen in 2007. Time goes fast, A blink already near 28 years old (4 more days). A very positive guys with alot dream. But now...

When getting older, it become less positive and dream starting to reduce. Maybe I know the reality cant allow us to achieve so many thing in so short time. I always wish I can with my love 1 (including my family and her family) together have a great nice days/trips maybe in europe or somewhere. Drinking wine/coffee and having a nice chat.

Thoughts will Become Things !!! My best friend always told me. I always believe because of Laws of Attraction. There so much thing I need to need yet I dont have so much time.

Somebody here now? Can you help me?

Happiness

It these consider a happy day for me or should consider a very very sad day? Because I already tender my resignation letter today. Quit sad because I already get use to the environment, now I need to change another environment again. There are a challenge there, but as you know "No Pain No Gain".

Since we talk about happiness, I sending a SMS to her this morning:-

"The Happiness is start from you and me"

I don’t know what I can do to help her but I know I will accompany her until she really can source out those problems. Maybe a day or may a month… a year? I not sure … but what I know that when she with me, she very happy… I hope I can build her happiness together. This is I what I want. Maybe 2008 will different. Let wished everything is fine in 2008

*I heart you 2 (she teach me)

Merry X'Mas

A X'Mas Morning feel so great with a Merry X'Mas Song. Yeah I learn a new X'Mas song that I learned from piano book. Thank my sifu jane who teach me how to read those "Tau Geh" hahaha. I feel so siok now... But still using 1 hand la... :)

I learned this to play for someone, Some who I love. I hope she will like the song that I learn and play for her. I wish her have a great X'Mas and New Year. All the sadness and pain left at 2007, 2008 is a new years with new hope. I wish that can come true !

Merry Christmas !

Christmas Tree

Lonely Xmas

This year was the year that I feel lonely in this Xmas Eve. Quite suprise right? not like me hor but nevermind la... every year also happy happy, this year not happy nevermind de... I might play piano lor since is xmas... My sifu teach me alot basic stuff already, should enough for me learn for few hours.

Another thing for next year is I hope after this Xmas and New Year, I can start my ahem* ahem* with her :) Relationship la... dont missunderstand Hope la... only a hope... But I always believe Laws of Attraction. If you believe it will come true, It will !

Merry X' Mas and Happy New Years !

I Miss You !

A new beginning

A new year is coming soon. Which 2008 and let me increase my age by 1. I am 28 years old next year. Alot of thing I achieving and alot of thing I have lose. I have gain my property, my car and my lovely dog healhty. I have my new career. It always not completed because I just enjoy it alone. I cannot find a happiness just my self althought I got prince with me. I still need someone to share my happiness. Where are you ? When I could find you...

I believe is very near, and very very near...

Annual Dinner

A Flora night for Kompakar Annual Dinner on 13 Dec 2007. It was so nice and I been appointed to become a photographer :p Sorry my still is suck so please considerate abit. Newbie in photograhing ! Everyone should bring a flower or wear flower shirt. Thank for who make de flower for me.

A flower make from my dearest !

After, preparing like a white horse prince... then going to fetch sarina and jacky with heng. The journey was great because everyone was wearing like a prince and princess.

Entering Ball Room

Annual Dinner Stage

Master of the Ceromony

Dancing ! dancing !

Those under 18 please dont learn

Properly this was a nice shot !

I am doing some stupid thing to win a chess box

The food wasnt nice and I have to pretend like a gays... look at the photo below... frankly I am straight ok? I love girl !

Oh yeah baby !

A new friend from Finance Department

A old friend (not too old :p) from ebiz

A neighbour from ebiz

My Sayang at kompakar

My wrestling mate.

My Dream girl :p

My Sa Jie (mandarin) lol

My Best friend in Kompakar

Suki Sukizen

My Sa Jie, what u doing?

A grand prize Sony Bravia 32' Winner

To view the below photo, make sure u got enough tissue for stop ur nose bleeding hahaha, Do they look sexy? I could tell u... You will love them !

A eHealth sexy girls !

Jennifer Wedding

Congratulation to Shen Houy and husband for the big day. I wish they can live happily, there are some picture to share in the wedding... Only got this 2 photo on my handphone... will post later the others photo.

My lovely friend

My Mammy (PTPL) :) we look alike?

The Invisible Wings

Each time, I become stronger in loneliness.
Each time, I hold off my tears even when I’m hurt deeply.
I know I have a pair of invisible wings that will let me fly.
Fly over despair.

I will not envy that they have the beautiful sun.
I can see that the dusk is different everyday.
I know I have a pair of invisible wings that will let me fly.
Give me hope.

I finally see all my dreams come true.
The youthful pursuits.
How the singing voice resonant?
I finally take flight.

I look forward and am not afraid.
I would fly however far the wind takes me.
Invisible wings let dreams last forever.
I’ll keep one wish for my own imagination.