Some Picture to Share

As AuyongCK and Little Notebook style... they always add some motivation or meaningful word inside the photo... From now... I also want to follow... =)

Be Myself

Sometime I really stupid... stupidly do stupid things.

I just want to be myself again...
I should stop doing something that stupid.
I should learn to begin with my new life and forget about the past.
I know what is next...

I would say that its ... for everything

*moving forward...

From now on... I promise will blog about happier and positive post... Stay tune. I PROMISE.

Confuse

I am talking about confuse not confucius ok? =) Serious abit. Did you all ever do something that you might think is correct but at the end you regret what you are doing? I have a plan which I think is perfect, but in the end of success... I regret what I done... That confuse right? Something like you decide to cook nasi lemak... at the end... you actually dont like nasi lemak... what the...

I reliase that, it shouldnt work that way... I want to undo, I tried... but is too late... what is done is done... there are not like Ms Word to undo changes as you wish too.

I regret (from the bottom of my broken heart) but in the same time if the thing I want to achieve is achieved... I feel good. Is not about sacrifice (I am not so Wai Dai)... is about the love... Is about the best thing that you can do to your love one... But however I just cant lie to you... I just want you to know everything is not like what you think...

I know you want me to be a better person, I wont let you down. I will moving forward to achieve my dream and what I want. To be a better person and to better lover in the future... No matter what is happening, I promise I will be the cheerful one as what I am... talkactive and romantic =)

Thanks to my friend and family who always beside me when I need you all right now. I am grateful that I still have you all. Thank god for the give all this. I believe all problem that I face now is just to prepare myself to handle some bigger in future.

When there is no hope, I will be the hope,
When there is no light, I will be the light,
When there is no love, I willing to be yours...

Memories

Sometime when we think about memories that we experience with person that you trust (friends) or family and love one, it bring a smile at your face. I just did it =) It flashing back happiness that I am been though with you. I am very happy. The path that we been though and how I help them to grown up and bring them to be a successful one. I feel great.

Someone did told me, nothing is forever... It really open my mind... what about plastic :p Hahaha I just kidding. I am sure there is something hidden in this sentences. However I believe in forever love Hahaha... Romantic right? or you just think I am dumb? Hahaha I still what I am, ok?... Maybe Im born to be romantic? Mat Romeo -_-'' Hahaha (beh paiseh)

They always compare... If you are couples... who should be the initiative one... who should be romantic one... or who should be the one who giving surprises... arguement and debate around... girl, boy or balances? For me, I, myself... do it all Hahaha... I like to see my love one happy... I like to see person I trust be happy... No matter you are my love 1 or my friend, I just want to see you happy whenever you are with me... hei... people who know me give some comment la... I always do it right? Hahaha

We should always be happy... We should be live to the fullest when we are still able... I learning the process of enjoying my life althought I having financial and relationship problem. So old jor neh... Still dont learn meh... when I will be grown up ah ahhhhhh !

A silent night... A peaceful night... What in my heart... I still love you... frankly... no matter what is happening in future... Our love never will erase in my heart. I wish everything will be fine... soon? I dont know...

Night night... Johntim... Tomorrow will be good, better and the best !

Thought

Having alot of thought in my mind. Keep processing repeatly. These day, quite focus on working. Things are getting more and time is getting less. But for me, rest is still important. That why I choose to go back earlier. Resting is for the futher journey =)

But however, in home I didnt get good rest also. Interm of mentally. Problem always like me, always stick with me. I dont know why, maybe god train me by solving all this? I dont know. I patiently solve and I hope I can handle this well.

One of the thought I having now is, how effectively we can use Love and Care in our life with our family and love one? Do love mean let them do whatever they like without worrying? Or do love mean care and worry what they are doing? I think there must be balance on this... but how to define the balance? You might think is over but maybe I might think it just perfectly great. It all depend on individual... but if it not compliance (machine language :p) it will become very harder.

Dont wish to think so much of this right now since I really tired (sick, abit fever and sore throat) with all this question and answer...

p/s: I start to stop imagine my beautiful dream.

Recently

I am sure that you all know recently I am not feeling good. In term of work, financial and love I really having a bad time. It all because of me... Haizz... This can be smooth if I have better plan and better action. I am not pushing the thing to be my way... I just urge thing can be solve quickly and smoothly...

A friend told be... do something that under your control than hoping something that not under your control to be happen... Sound very blur right? If you not understand, also nevermind... I getting very and very confuse with what I doing now...

Life is short... why not just enjoy it... why make thing so complicated? If I am dying tomorrow, how? I wishing everything will be fine, seriously... I hope everything can turn to be good and I can having my good sleep again... I wish you can be strong to face everything that might be happen soon... Good Night

*Praying hard

Fair?

I am asking myself quite sometime, it is fair to me? Ermmmm I wouldnt say is fair not but I deserved this to be happen, I deserved what the consequences. As guys, mistake that done, we dare to admit and not to repeat it again.

There is nothing to be fair or not... Is not consider how many good thing is you do, is counting by how many bad thing u done. You can do 99 good thing but just 1 mistake... you gone... For example that my friend told me... 1 of the sales man... trying to push his company sales. Every year help company earn big buck... But in 2008 accidently he make one of the "big" customer angry. The customer immediately call to his boss and say "If this guys still in your company, I will end the business with you"... If you are boss... what you going to do... At the end... poor guy get fired at his ass...

Same in other thing... 1 thing you do badly... you death hahaha. So now, I learn not to make mistake rather than doing alot of good thing... =) I believe it applied to work wise, friendship, family or your relationship. Dont make mistake... you will regret forever...

Something that I really think hard

Hi all, miss my post ma? I am sorry for not blogging for sometime. Due to alot of issue that make me speechless and writeless =). Thing still mess up and I am on the track to solve and clear out unwanted issue to be happen.

Listening to someone advise yesterday and hit me hard to think. Do I still like this? Do I really can be better? Question that in my head now. Time will prove it, maybe, I am not so sure but as I know I will do all my best.

April is coming soon, what is happening to my plan... it been 4 months Im trying but yet no good result ... abit frus and sad... more to dissapointment but I know I need to work even hard to get what I want. I am not young anymore and I really need to do something that really benefit for my future... In term of love or career and family... all of them should be improve in this year...

To be improve... I think most important is Me, Myself... I should reorganize my thinking and my acting... I dont know how but I will try... try to be better... It friday again... Do I have any activities tonight? Or just sit home do nothing (of course not forget gaming and reading some books)...

I still waiting... waiting for unknown answer...

Take a Break

Just want stop blogging for certain period for a break... Really no mood to writing anything right now. For those who are my fans, sorry for that.

Stay Tune... I will be back very soon.

Take Care

I don't know what to do now that we're apart, I just don't know how to live without the other half of my heart. I having serious heartache here... Its killing me. But dont worry, I still strong to handle this.

I have alot doubt on the decision that already been made. But I know, there must be a reason behind. A reason that I respect and understandable. I have no fear of apart, but my biggerst fear is that one day we will pass each other on the streets and have an artifical conversation. That scaring me...

I always questioning myself... What is different between a lover and a friend... it something very weird... Something I still not understand, A relationship :-

From a person you dont know until be a friend
From a friend until become a lover
From a lover it can also drop to be friend or
Someone just say HI when they meet up...

No matter how... I wish you have to forgive to forget, and forget, to feel again. Only that your life can be cheer up again. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely. From my bottom of my broken heart.

"Life is unpredictable, do treasure every moment"

Sleepless night

It nearly 4am... I am thinking hard why it happen again... It just so bad that it happen again and again. I swear to god that I really try my best to learn from previous mistake and hope it wont happen. In some circumtances... It still happen. I didnt blame anyone just myself.

It was so hard to build a relationship... but yet it so easy to destroy it. It take not even an hours just to destroy a wonderful story. A story should end with 365 pages is ended with only 5 pages. It was too sad when it came true, I still not believing it.

Nothing can be undone, what is done it already taken effect. It is too late to do anything but I just want to say "although is hard time, please be strong to go through it". I will here to support you spiritually. You are always the best among the rest.

The story of us just stop here... 09 March 2009 - Page 5

Yes but no if, I just broke your heart just like that

Beautiful Sunday, For me and for you. A relief or I would call it release of feeling in our heart. At last, thing are happen and everything is too late. Too late for sorry and too late to recover. I still remember same month in 2007. I having this kind of feeling too, but as time pass and I been grown up, I think I can handle well this time.

It shouldnt even started in the 1st place because all this while, I am not ready yet. Why say so? I am not ready yet a better man. I am still the one emotion and uncontrollable person (scary huh). I dont want thing turn this way but maybe I still cant make it in the right way, my fault. Maybe I should take some break for myself. I should concentrate more on my career which currently really bad right now =)

Concern that disscuss is still confuse in my mind... I am selfish? Do I just think of myself? It make me confuse, I thought all the time I been thinking how to improved and hope to have a better relationship?... This was my mistake, and I not event know until today. Maybe I should really think about it... Think about what I been done all the time.

Thanks for the wonderful year you given to me. It was my happiest day in my life. Of course do remember to take care yourself and always happy.

My Big Day

Is my Big day... Nothing special just having some nice Lunch in Cafe Havana. Ordering a Set Lunch that contains :-

Mushroom Soup (thumb up)
Nice Breed
Mix Grill (Main Dishes)
Coffee
Cake (For my birthday hahaha)

We not able to finisht he cake and we take away. The lunch was the best in Dubai (I suppose) because most of the time I will take fast food or mix rice (which cost about 20-30 AED). Going home soon. I will not miss Dubai hahaha because I feel nothing special here =) Place that I going to visit already done (except ski - if possible I will go next trip)

Time go move on... Happy Birthday Johntim, and thanks to all wishes from my brother, sista, friend and especially my Love 1. Thank so much ! See you all soon !

Dubai - Global Village

7 Feb 2009, with my coll visiting Global Village in Dubai. Sound fun because there are alot country in 1 places. Like visiting whole middile east and some part of Europe and Asian country. The place also including fun fair section. But I never play because because it was too pack and expensive. Let enjoy the picture...

A very big Ferris wheel

Very cute baby hor

Day of Phip

Night of Philp

Very great right?

Fatty bom bom in Europe

I would rate this place 7/10 although the place is very beautiful but nothing to buy hahaha. I am not sure why local people can shop until crazy but for us (me and my coll) We are not interest anything there =) Happy Valentine Day tomorrow =)

Boring Dubai

As you all know, the life here are very boring... except if you are rich ass here... thing are so expensive and that why we decided to stay home. Eat - Sleep - Eat - Sleep and Eat again. Lucky the Hotel Apartment got Gym... If not I think I sure gain 10KG weight when I go back to Malaysia.

Today fried rice for my coll to eat. The kitchen doesnt have completed equipment... I use POT to fried rice... can you imagine??? POT wor... Hahaha see see below :-

Although is not nice... but can accept la... =)

After finish eating the fried rice straight away I go to bed and sleep (pig right? haha). After an hour, I wake up and my stomach hungry again (OMG !! I am big pig). I decided to fried some Paratha (roti canai). I put the Paratha into the pan and walk away to watch TV (for awhile)... After 5 minutes... only I remember I cook something hahaha... see what I cook =)

Concentrate if you are cooking... if not u get this =)

Time is pass quite fast here, tomorrow we will going to Global Village or Dubai Mall . Dubai Mall is a new shopping mall that located near to the Dubai Tallest (Burj Dubai) building in the world. Friend say that it is a biggest shopping mall in UAE. I think must go right ? I will take some picture and post for you all to see ya =) Enjoy

Hotel Apartment

This are the Hotel Apartment that I need to stay about 3 weeks... Everything is OK except no Internet connection. I been suffer for 6 days without any Internet Connection and today I spend RM45 for 50MB Internet connection hahaha. The facilities include:-

1) Very nice view swimming pool
2) Gym
3) LCD TV (Star World, Star Movies etc)
4) Washing Machine + Dryer
5) Fridge

Living Hall
Bed Room

Front view of Master Bed Room

Kitchen

Very nice right?

I going to celebrate my valentine and birthday here... so sad... I am sorry for this ya, hope you understand... Hopefully next year... our valentine can be together again (cross finger). Just want to tell you, Im really miss you and love you =)

p/s: Wait for your surprises... =)

Dubai Day 4 - Second Trip

Very frus you know? No internet when going back Hotel... Going to write blog also cant... today... after working time, I am trying to update something in Dubai... Few thing need to update.




1) Feel Lonely Here (missing you)
2) Weather is cold (like genting)
3) Working very mess up...
4) Food are sucks... (fast food and maggie again !)
5) Earn Money ^-^




This few days, sleep very early because no Internet, going gym and having staying in great time in Dunes Hotel Apartment. The Hotel very nice... will post when Internet is up. Sure you will jeles again. But nothing fancy la... I prefer stay in Malaysia and doing something that I like. But no choice... work 1st... no money how to survive hahaha. I am going be rat in the rat race again (if you know what I am talking about).

Alot poeple say Ox year is a good year for me, Especially in my Career. I wish is will be true ... Bcause I really wish something I want can come true. Lets pray for me ya. Ok la.. today I going to stop here... stay tune for my next post - My Hotel Apartment =)

My 1st meal in Dubai, thanks Babu Raja =)

Late Gong Xi Fat Chai

While waiting at Doha Airport. Just writing some lovely time in CNY. Quite busy going here and there... driving most of the time but it worth just to get her smile hahaha. Many thing I done in the Chinese New Year :-

(source : zwani.com)

1) Sent Princey to Vacation (hahaha)
2) Re-union Dinner (with family)
3) Fire cracker (excited har? hehehe)
4) Visiting friend and relative
5) Short trip (ermmm was the best ever)

I will rate this CNY 9/10 marks because I really enjoy... but just abit rush that why I never give 10 marks... I hope next time I can get more holiday and no need so rush to Dubai... Going to miss Malaysia, You and alot alot more thing !

p/s: argghhhhhhh Forget to bring my PSP !! Bored to death this time !! Stupid me !!

Waterfall

Look at the picture below, how was it? Look nice right? I taken by using high aperture value and low shutter speed. This picture is taken when I visiting Dubai last trip. Ermmmm if you asking me, do I miss Dubai? I will say ... not exactly hahaha... I prefer Malaysia... I love food here, people, family, friend and of course you are the most important one.

Getting notice will be going to Dubai again... on week of 2nd Feb 2008 ... abit sad because Valentine is on 14... some how My birthday is fall on 18 and your too will be miss. It consider a triple miss for me... (I'm Sorry) Sometime, we have no choice to say 'No', I dont want to go... Work... to get money and because only this we can survive...

Going to some places that you not familiar is not so easy... You need to get use to the culture... get use to the people and the working environment is really killing me. However... there is about 10 days to enjoy in Malaysia with you... I wish is a good sign of year 2009.

Happy Chinese New Year to you !

p/s: This year you are able to play firework, excited?

Everyone's selfish

You see... give you an example :-

When you looking for job, what is the your expectation? Frankly...
1) You hope, you can contribute and do your best to the company?
2) You hope, the company can give you better benefit and future growth in your career?
(of coz salary is one of the expectation)

I admit, I am selfish... I always looking for a company can growth me all the ways to the top. Of course in the same time I will growing with the company, right? But the main concern for most poeple is (especially me)... How we forsee the company to growth us in 5 years and not how much are we going to contribute to the company in 5 years time, right ladies and gentlements? Hahaha (For Boss... dont kill me, I just talk as an employee or "tar gong chai")

I believe it work in this way... what do you think? You can always argue with me that "is not that way"... but I got my supporter and reader... so better you dont comment something stupid here =) Wahahaha

Everyone have their own preferences, I will never say I am right or you are right... Just is matter our choice.

"If you put a pretty girl (sexy and big boob) and a toy in front of a baby, he'll pick up a toy because his need is different" - is all about different need in different time.

When he grown up... he will need the pretty girl =) Giving a right thing in the right time is the most important aspect. I wish my sharing is helpful for everyone when judging anyone or even yourself...

Different

I always think am I different with others? I guess so... I am not difficult person, but yet not so simple as you think. I always like to do something I like... If I dont like, I dont give a damn. I seldom 'Jia Jia' with thing that I dont like. (Do I saying something that everybody know? Hahaha)

I am person who like to look people/person strength rather than their weakness. I like to praise their strength and give them confident. I learn this when I was in my MBA class. My lecturer always remind us, "Always look at strength and decide what he should be". This only motive and able to let them perform to the MAX.

Arghhhh What is my strength then? I know you will say ... SNAKING hahaha :p Then I should be Snake King =) ... Nooooooooo I am not =)

I hate to work alone... I hate to be work independently for longer period... I dont like to be Superman or to be Hero. I prefer work in the team... seriously I like teamwork rather than SOLO ... I am team player... I cant be alone wey !

I think I might choose to become Business Consultant, Marketing or Sales sooner or later... I just tired and tired with programming... if ... else... execute, mapping etc etc... arggghhhh kill me =) Changes is always hard... I know ! But yet I wont give up. I wanna do something different for year 2009 =)

I wish my dream and hope can come true. Add oil Johntim... Wish me luck in 2009

Live, Life to the Fullest

How to live, life to the fullest? I am thinking again and again… Doing something I like? Or doing something that I must do? There is different you know?

Doing something I like and I don’t need to care of the consequences.

• Eg. I like gaming I just play game for it, travel, eat, sleep …

Doing something that is important … must do

• Eg. Earn money and do something I don’t like -_-

How to live with fullest with this? If I continue doing something I don’t like… human are very weird… -_- including me. Haizz ! Well, we all don’t have choice… can’t complain… can’t speak out… unless u got a lot and a lot of money. If not just keep our mouth shut and do your unlikely jobs - I telling myself :p

Live life to the foolish is more suitable for me now… Hahaha

Determination

I really need to be strong this time. For so long, I didnt detox... at all... I like to eat ! This is what everyone know about me... eat eat eat without proper slimming/keep fit will turn me become fatty bom bom again -_-... Arghhhhhh I dont want !!

I decided to detox today... ermmm can I make it? It been so long I never detox... In Dubai till now... 3 months hahaha eat non stop... frm 66Kg to 71Kg (today morning weight). At least after this 3 days... got 68Kg-69Kg I already happy haha (for CNY). Other than slim down, I also want to throw out all the rubbish from my body... eat too much rubbish (junk food) nowaday.... Semua masuk ! hahaha Banyak Poison la... my body =)

CNY is coming... meaning another year again... I still not achieve what I want... how ah? Must do something hahaha (do what?). I wish 2009 year of Ox is a prosper year for me, all my family and friend. Wish all Happy Year 2009.

I can do it !

Bored to Death

You know what is bored to death? ... meaning hor... sien until mati... too long holiday and I just back to working... writing document and reading some technical coding... somemore + office very quite because all in holiday leave... Sienzzz

New year is coming soon, what is your wish? Ermmm for me, I wish all my family, my love 1 and all my friend healhty. Of coz I got alot wishes... dont too greedy and my parent say, wishes cannot tell others.... must keep as secret if not cannot come true wor... So I know you know what I wish right? Pray for me, Hahaha

Year 2009, I hope can control my Financial well... Cant spend too much, must save ahhhhhhh How to marry wor??? Why I always no money !! Secondly my anger... I hope I can be better although I know it getting better :p right? No meh? Hahaha I know u laugh at me !!! Everything is good (except anger *whispering)

Wish everyone Happy go lucky... especially you ah !! be positive ya !!

Life just like if else

Do you feel like that? Hahaha do too much programming… become addicted to if else. Life just like if else… example

If today no raining I will go pasar malam…
Else I will stay home and sleep…

If(Today != rain){
Go pasar malam
}
Else {
Stay home and sleep
}

Sometime it can be more complicated…
If today go out with A girl, watch movies
If go with B girl, nice dinner
If go with C girl, go hotel :p
Else "sendiri mari" (hahahaha, you know what I mean)

However, when your life have too many if else, you might face some problem… there are lack of motivation and you are very hard to achieve your goal because u give yourself too option or I would say excuse… rather that have a very focus objective.

If (success = yes) {
Enjoy your life
}
else {
Continue to fight
}

Focus on your objectives/goals and try to achieve it ! Wish you have great Merry Christmas !

Happiness

I still remember a quote...

"Happiness is the choice you make".

The quote is really meaningful if you understand it. Happy or not is the choice you should make. No one is able to decide for you wether you should happy or not. Right? Sadly, I finding some of my friend are upset right now. I dont know what I can help them to overcome it but I just wish they can choose to be happy. Choose to what they wanna be and overcome all the obstacles. I know it is hard but I just wish they can overcome it.

X'mas is coming, my wish just simple... I wish everyone that I know always healthy and the important is to be happy all the time. I always believe, if it is belong to you... it yours but otherwise if not it will not yours. One of the way to release my emotion when I am not happy is blogging. I find it really help... I dont now you all... I hope everything will be fine my friends... Be strong and always believe, tomorrow will be better.

Just remember, I always here for you.

Cheer up my friends =)

Brighter Day

It is getting smooth and better. Not sure is because positive thinking and spirit of never give up works on me... Hahaha and not forget to thanks for friends who always give me support and motivation words, Its really help alot. I am feel relief now, of course for certain reason la... ermmm I keep it secret ok?

Its been sometime I worry, sad and not happy, but not now. Nothing is important than appreciate what I having now. I learn to appreciate what I have and how to make thing better. Maybe end of year... should learn to be more mature right? Hahaha

I wish everything can be smooth and better like right now... and I will try my best to work hard for everything I need right now. Towards a better future and life...

Friday and Again

Hahaha, My friend message me and say, other that Friday anything to share? I was laughing and asnwer her... Friday good, friday very good haha... Not I want to write about Friday but Friday just not so nice. At times, I scare on Friday, why? why? That why I write about it =)

Christmas and New Year arriving soon, but my wishes and objective still havent achieved. Haizz still remember what is my objective? Check my blog la... hahaha. Feel useless la...

I wanted to tell Santa Claus, can you granted my wish? I just want to have 1 wish. Can? Hahaha so stupid and childish right? But I really hope that...

Even tho I cant achieved what I want this year... I believe 2009, I will able to achieve it. Trust me, I can do it ! (*whispering... hope can achieved next year la... ahahha)

Another Friday

Yes is another friday... I think friday is not a good day for me. I use to like friday but not anymore. Problem always occurs when friday haha how I am going to like friday...

Should I be so stubborn to make thing so difficult? or should I be so principle to hold something so tight until You and Me also cant breath... I keep asking myself... Do I really want the ending like this?

Ermmm nooo, I dont want that happen... I want something to be happy... Something to be enjoy and something to be good which everyone wish to be. How many of us can do this? I am a best example who cant do this... Taught and action are different. I starting to losing myself... and I might start to losing the precious one... I know... but I still have my principle which I think it already build-inside my body and I cant forever to take out.

I not wish that will happen but I just cant control it anymore... I m not able to control the situation anymore... and yet I am start losing it now... What should I do... What should I have to do... to be the one which you can accept... I wonder and wonder, will it be good if I am not like this? ermmm maybe yes...

In this 20+ years of my life, I make alot people "drop their spec" (dissapointed) including myself...myself let myself disspointed... How sad when this happen. Luckily only my family do not dissapointed about me and always support me whereever I fall or in trouble.

Thanks I love my family. I will not let you all down...

Now vs Future

Sometime I am just dont know what I am doing and what I will be in the future. Do you also having this question in your mind? Ermmm I feel like I am living in the darkest with only lighten abit by low power neon light... haha... Where is my sport light which can brighter my life more?

I lost my objective to work better... I lost my motivation to do something new... I think I am person who really easy get bored with something... (of course not my love 1, cover my ass 1st). I tend to easily lost focus on what I am doing... I should be more consistent and persistant in doing thing... Maybe this is my weakness...

2008 is going to end this month... I need to do something... You have faith on me... I should have confident to myself, which I really need it now. Good luck johntim !