Bored to Death

You know what is bored to death? ... meaning hor... sien until mati... too long holiday and I just back to working... writing document and reading some technical coding... somemore + office very quite because all in holiday leave... Sienzzz

New year is coming soon, what is your wish? Ermmm for me, I wish all my family, my love 1 and all my friend healhty. Of coz I got alot wishes... dont too greedy and my parent say, wishes cannot tell others.... must keep as secret if not cannot come true wor... So I know you know what I wish right? Pray for me, Hahaha

Year 2009, I hope can control my Financial well... Cant spend too much, must save ahhhhhhh How to marry wor??? Why I always no money !! Secondly my anger... I hope I can be better although I know it getting better :p right? No meh? Hahaha I know u laugh at me !!! Everything is good (except anger *whispering)

Wish everyone Happy go lucky... especially you ah !! be positive ya !!

Life just like if else

Do you feel like that? Hahaha do too much programming… become addicted to if else. Life just like if else… example

If today no raining I will go pasar malam…
Else I will stay home and sleep…

If(Today != rain){
Go pasar malam
}
Else {
Stay home and sleep
}

Sometime it can be more complicated…
If today go out with A girl, watch movies
If go with B girl, nice dinner
If go with C girl, go hotel :p
Else "sendiri mari" (hahahaha, you know what I mean)

However, when your life have too many if else, you might face some problem… there are lack of motivation and you are very hard to achieve your goal because u give yourself too option or I would say excuse… rather that have a very focus objective.

If (success = yes) {
Enjoy your life
}
else {
Continue to fight
}

Focus on your objectives/goals and try to achieve it ! Wish you have great Merry Christmas !

Happiness

I still remember a quote...

"Happiness is the choice you make".

The quote is really meaningful if you understand it. Happy or not is the choice you should make. No one is able to decide for you wether you should happy or not. Right? Sadly, I finding some of my friend are upset right now. I dont know what I can help them to overcome it but I just wish they can choose to be happy. Choose to what they wanna be and overcome all the obstacles. I know it is hard but I just wish they can overcome it.

X'mas is coming, my wish just simple... I wish everyone that I know always healthy and the important is to be happy all the time. I always believe, if it is belong to you... it yours but otherwise if not it will not yours. One of the way to release my emotion when I am not happy is blogging. I find it really help... I dont now you all... I hope everything will be fine my friends... Be strong and always believe, tomorrow will be better.

Just remember, I always here for you.

Cheer up my friends =)

Brighter Day

It is getting smooth and better. Not sure is because positive thinking and spirit of never give up works on me... Hahaha and not forget to thanks for friends who always give me support and motivation words, Its really help alot. I am feel relief now, of course for certain reason la... ermmm I keep it secret ok?

Its been sometime I worry, sad and not happy, but not now. Nothing is important than appreciate what I having now. I learn to appreciate what I have and how to make thing better. Maybe end of year... should learn to be more mature right? Hahaha

I wish everything can be smooth and better like right now... and I will try my best to work hard for everything I need right now. Towards a better future and life...

Friday and Again

Hahaha, My friend message me and say, other that Friday anything to share? I was laughing and asnwer her... Friday good, friday very good haha... Not I want to write about Friday but Friday just not so nice. At times, I scare on Friday, why? why? That why I write about it =)

Christmas and New Year arriving soon, but my wishes and objective still havent achieved. Haizz still remember what is my objective? Check my blog la... hahaha. Feel useless la...

I wanted to tell Santa Claus, can you granted my wish? I just want to have 1 wish. Can? Hahaha so stupid and childish right? But I really hope that...

Even tho I cant achieved what I want this year... I believe 2009, I will able to achieve it. Trust me, I can do it ! (*whispering... hope can achieved next year la... ahahha)

Another Friday

Yes is another friday... I think friday is not a good day for me. I use to like friday but not anymore. Problem always occurs when friday haha how I am going to like friday...

Should I be so stubborn to make thing so difficult? or should I be so principle to hold something so tight until You and Me also cant breath... I keep asking myself... Do I really want the ending like this?

Ermmm nooo, I dont want that happen... I want something to be happy... Something to be enjoy and something to be good which everyone wish to be. How many of us can do this? I am a best example who cant do this... Taught and action are different. I starting to losing myself... and I might start to losing the precious one... I know... but I still have my principle which I think it already build-inside my body and I cant forever to take out.

I not wish that will happen but I just cant control it anymore... I m not able to control the situation anymore... and yet I am start losing it now... What should I do... What should I have to do... to be the one which you can accept... I wonder and wonder, will it be good if I am not like this? ermmm maybe yes...

In this 20+ years of my life, I make alot people "drop their spec" (dissapointed) including myself...myself let myself disspointed... How sad when this happen. Luckily only my family do not dissapointed about me and always support me whereever I fall or in trouble.

Thanks I love my family. I will not let you all down...

Now vs Future

Sometime I am just dont know what I am doing and what I will be in the future. Do you also having this question in your mind? Ermmm I feel like I am living in the darkest with only lighten abit by low power neon light... haha... Where is my sport light which can brighter my life more?

I lost my objective to work better... I lost my motivation to do something new... I think I am person who really easy get bored with something... (of course not my love 1, cover my ass 1st). I tend to easily lost focus on what I am doing... I should be more consistent and persistant in doing thing... Maybe this is my weakness...

2008 is going to end this month... I need to do something... You have faith on me... I should have confident to myself, which I really need it now. Good luck johntim !